aliciawashere

Ahgua

2009-08-10T00:14:00.003+08:00

Trying out Wordpress.

http://www.hereisalicia.wordpress.com/

Happy 44th ($$) B'dae, S'pore!

Although the time spent with CG was short,

I reaaallly love you guys(:

And I just want you guys to keep running for God,

no matter how hard it gets,

because,

I know how hard it is.

Amen? (:

SO SMALL

2009-08-10T00:11:00.004+08:00

ARGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I wanna vent but I can't cos you will just take one look at this and dismiss. What for?

Why is God making this so hard for me. I try so hard but I never seem to pass my own expectations. I know He will not set things that I cannot overcome, so why is this path that I've taken so damn lonely. Where are you guys when I need you?

Pooey.

I'll be seeing you tomorrow, I know it.

2009-08-07T00:09:00.002+08:00

kettle,

I need to tell someone or else its going to rip me apart. The reason I am so in love with life, is because I am so in love with you.
— pot

R,
thinking about you can make me smile uncontrollably anytime and anywhere for hours on end.
— K

boy,
you are my new years resolution.
— girl

http://letterstocrushes.com/

SO cute lah these letters. So if you have a crush you can drop by and read alllll the letters to their crushes which are very frank and sweet in a way. Too bad I don't have a crush, or I'll have spammed the website ; D Hee hee.

Vanessa's surprise was fun. Although I was sick! HAHA! Didn't know right. Actually half the time I wanted to cough ; D Had a good time just hanging out with Nic and Siok and others! (:

Happy B'dae yo!

MMMM. M&ms.

2009-08-05T20:54:00.001+08:00

M&Ms make me happy.

But I ate too much, and I'm having bad sore throat and feeling achey all over. I feel like I'm going to be sick. In school today was like dying lah... Dozing off like mad.

I wish I didn't have 2 tests tmr.. UGH

I HATE SCHOOL.

I need 2 "D" and 2 "S" to get promoted.

I'm studying like alot.

I HOPE IT PAYS OFF.

I need chem tutor asap.

URGHHH.

Aim: all "A"s.

WHEE

2009-08-04T23:18:00.002+08:00

(Elle Spain)

I blog X2 a day. OCD.

Congrats to Bestie who had earned a "(insert colour)" Belt for TKD! (: You are awesome girl!

"None of these words have been rehearsed,

I don't think they can be reversed."

Aly&Aj - Careful with words.

: D

LALALA!

I'm sick, but a powerful yellow pill is making me very sleepy...

Nights guys..

Electric eyes

2009-08-04T20:52:00.001+08:00

AHHH I HATE BLOGGER. SUCKS.

I'm sooo tired man! I had like 3 lectures today! Lucky had M&Ms to keep me awake. Must be I never drink my coffee thats why can't keep awake.

Very in love with detective shows like Boss and Mr Brain! Check it out too! HAHA! They all have cute (personality) characters so it's so funny just watching them! LOL. Plus the plots are good too, make me more intelligent yo! (:

" You can cry, we won't look. "

WAHHH! If you watch BOSS, episode 8 where konami says it to Yamamu is soooo cute lah!

Ok back to studying.

SANDart

2009-08-03T22:44:00.001+08:00

!) random stuffs.

1) Drank two cups of ice coffee which kept me awake for school.
2) Walking past MRT track and realised I'm scared of the MRT on the track sound. (makes sense?)
3) Friend stole M&Ms from my bag( which I was carrying ) when I was waving my moshimoshi around proclaiming its cleaniness.
4) Missed St Nicks alot when the aunties who sold the cocoa tree chocolates and snacks today told us St nicks is the best.
5) I might like twitter.
6) Craves for alot of M&Ms after seeing detective on tv eat cos might make me smarter!
7) Going to sleep late again. My eyebags just got a shade darker.
8) Gamer, UP, G.I.Joe : D and 200 Days of Summer!!!!!!!!!!
9) Running out of things to say! LOL
10) You fill this one up.

I wonder what would happen if you just put your hand on my shoulder.

2009-08-03T17:19:00.001+08:00

I'm officially quitting the BMW club. The bitch-moan-whine club in which Alicia has formed in her blog.
LOL! I know I said some pretty emo stuff. I was ready to quit and throw in the towel. Then the next day, everything was fine again.

By thinking alot, I pretty much put my values, beliefs and tastes on the loudspeaker. I know what I want. I'm clear about the direction I'm gonna walk in. Bad things will continue to happen but somehow I've grown stronger and a little more independant, and the future problems doesn't seem so big anymore(:

Jiayous everyone! : D

Do a gratitude list or something, realise you are far "richer" then you think.

Muacks!

post dedicated to Moshi Moshi

2009-08-02T23:52:00.000+08:00

LSJ -- ?trams says:
hey
u washed ur smelly doll?
alicia says:
OI!
what smelly
now very nice smell loh!
LSJ -- ?trams says:
u washed it?
alicia says:
yah!
LSJ -- ?trams says:
did the eye drop off?

Thanks LSJ. D :

I am a very gentle person ok! I used a toothbrush and soap! I admit that I squeezed a little too hard but then I really love my Moshi Moshi ok.

(:

Your smile dazzles me and makes me want to stare.

2009-08-02T22:07:00.000+08:00

CG was so awesome awesome today.
I could feel Chris growing immediately and I felt the presence of God fall upon him! Keep growing Chris(: We all love you loads.

I never want to play the tongkak game anymore. I am a 5+10+5+5=25th level pig! This game is already haunting me lah! NOOOO more tukituki, tongkaktongkak and umm ji ji!!!

On 410 today, I was like the only person on the bus lah! I was scared the uncle will do something bad! D : If he does, I will kick him till he flies out of the window. (: <

Now to start on my stupid E.O.M!

EVERYONE please pray for Dots who seem to have some unknown sickness that's making her faint alot. Pray that she recover quickly man! (:

Still feel very relieved about that. (:

(: (:

P.s- NJC guy is kahliang! Hello!

NJC GUY`

2009-08-01T23:45:00.000+08:00

A shout-out to the NJC Guy.
Ernest, surrender his HP no, Email and home add(ok just kidding bout the add part)
and urh, his name :# to alicia.

So excited to have fellow NJC-ian in HoGc!!!! I am so excited about it.
My head is chanting " NEW GEN NEW GEN NEW GEN"
Power of 2~ ~ ~ ~ We can do something in that school where the days are as grey as the walls aye!

Btw, friend, I told you about him, did you rmb you just dismissed me? Thinking back, it wasn't important to you at all hor. LOL.

ANWS. EXCITED TO THE MAX(ttm). TTM TTM TTM TTM TTM TTM TTM TTM.

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(:

SEE YOU AROUND NJC-GUY!
You made my day!
(:

SEE HOW.

2009-08-01T23:13:00.000+08:00

Dont like the "see how" phrase. LOL.

I ate seaweed shaker fries! SO seaweed lah, plus my garlic chilli, it tasted abit weird. LOL. And gave me alot of gas. ; D

My to-do list got like 10plus things to do. I think I should get going.

Hey you, I deleted you from hotmail. Didn't know loving and worrying for you could become so draining. Could you believe the relief I felt when I pressed the delete button! PHEWW man. I won't see your "eye" picture anymore and wonder why you wouldn't talk to me since I was online. I will need your add so I can send your stuff back. Deleting you from hotmail, (considering FB too) cannot compare to you deleting me from your very fufiling life without us. Yup, I just can't stand the fact that you said Bye and never looked back. And nope, I won't be the one running after you. (: And just in case, you would like to wish me Happy 1st anniversary or something, this coming 15th August would be my 1st year here at home.

* I have really thought about this seriously for very long, so this isn't some AA game or bitter cry from me. It's me being a wee bit happier with this off my chest. I know I deserve to be happy right! (: ( With or without you ) Thank you.

Things are sorting out. I don't have the strength for those who don't have the time for me. I'm not worth the time for a "hi" online.
I think the last few posts were all this. Cutting myself free from such idiotic worries and insecurities. Yes, you can argueeeee all you like. I still love you though. (;

RIGHT NOW, I see a mountain of papers beside, and I know I'm on the right track of studying. Because, a clean neat desk just means everything is collecting dust in the files. LOL. Through God, I can move mountains (of paper) , literally.

I feel so annoyingly happy that I've finally let you go. Although there are like seemingly infinite worries, I hope you will be honoured to know that you were a BIG one. : D And I've overcome it! Thank you God!

sewing machine threatened by mom,
alicia

The reason I never want to open up my heart to anyone

2009-08-01T00:12:00.004+08:00

is you.

I want solitude this time.
Bye to being a suffering matyr.

Are you with me,
or against me.

Either way,
I've put my needs on the backburner
to be "understanding" for you.
I try to understand why people can't be nice.
I don't bother already.
If you love me, I love you.
If you don't love me, I still love you.

It's a simple question really.
With or against.

This is a shout-out to all you people.
It's very tiring to be the happy one 24/7.
Even so, it's taken for granted.
FML.

One worry down.
Email me. And let me move on.
Or I'll take it I'm not worth the time then.

At least try.

2009-07-30T23:40:00.000+08:00

I don't know if you will see this.

But I just want to let you know.

At least try to keep up contact. Instead of disappearing out of my/our lives and pretending nothing ever happened. Or that we never existed at all.

You probably don't feel like doing so. Then again, that only signals to me,

this friendship we have wasn't as strong as I thought it to be then?

That's why I dislike technology.

So near, yet so far.

Awesome, you make me feel.

2009-07-30T00:03:00.004+08:00

(Jak&Jill)

Hedi Mount and Sasha Pivarorova outside Chanel Huate Couture Show.

Like two but of one,

shielding each other from photographers,

backing each other up.

Wary yet alert.

That's bestie and me(:

Mending it piece by piece,

bit by bit(:

See you monday aye!

love.

p.s FRAN ARE YOU DOING WELL? Do update me on msn.

p.s ION IS SUPER NICE. Zara stuff super up-to-date and fully stocked. And there is my favourite $16.90 rack. ( I bought a green top) This season's Topshop is very very nice. Blazers of nude, pink, eclectic blue. Uncountable high-waisted skirts. Denim section. FAB heels. MY dream come true. Now I need the money dream part to come true too. And there's A BIG MUJI at B4! And fall/winter's UNIQLO season is very nice. And basement had nice JAP STREET FOOD! I like the B4-2nd storey. The other levels are the high-end part. (Which has body-guards roaming around and stuff I will need a lifetime to save up and buy (: ) I book char to roam ALL 8 LEVELS if you dare! : D

SEE YA!

Not by might.

2009-07-28T21:52:00.004+08:00

The labels we give people, the boxes we put them in.
They call it steorotyping.
I call it hateful.

I used to think like that too,
until I realise I was also boxing up my mind.

I know that there are people you think of when you look at the boxes.
Will you reach out to them even if they are unliked,
and do not measure up to society's,
and our standards?

I want to learn to love unconditionally(:
For love is the opposite of judgementalism, it inteferes with our views, attitudes and interactions. Love will be my foundation. Love is THE agenda. Then when we talk, we won't just be talking about THINGS we care about but PEOPLE we care about. And judgementalism will fade away, just like the woman at the well, the woman caught in adultery, and other stories of love.

Love me back, won't you?

Could it be..

2009-07-27T22:44:00.001+08:00

KINDER JOY MAKES ME VERY HAPPY! Although the eating part is confusing, the surprise is always there. I love surprises(;

I hate to admit but I LOVE MATHS! I really like thinking and using my brain. Wonder how I can be doing fashion then.. Hmm.. Had my first maths tuition in months. SIOK! Where is my tuition! (: Haha, and I sat there listening and liking it. I'm SO rusty in all my concepts and stuff but I promise to brush up(: hee hee.

I'm really having a hard time juggling studies, friends, church at this moment. But I will conquer! HAHA! I'm really missing my friends. I miss bestie(: Just teeny weeny scared that they will forget and pass me by and Deja-Vu again. Then again, I'm secure. If people don't bother about you, why should you hor! : D

SOYJOY, MAKI SUHSHI, TUNA BREAD. Stuff I like to eat*hint*alot. HAH!!!

Mrs brain,
signing off!

Black and red stripes.

2009-07-26T23:29:00.000+08:00

Madly happy today.
Because of you. Do you know that everytime you look at me, I'm trying to memorize your face and lock up whatever I can remember in my heart like a box of treasures.
Precious only to me.

The anointing was present. God's presence was there the moment the intro vid started. People were moved. A wave of mercy and grace. Innoncence. Love. Heart. Purity. Today was awesome.

It is not I who live but Christ who lives in me.

I love God so much so much.

I thank You for opening my ears once blind,
I can hear You now.
Let me remember whatever You spoke to me,
so that I may rejoice when it comes to past.

YOGA is really good. It tones you and makes you become more flexible.

CANT WAIT TO START DANCING(:

The point's been missed.

2009-07-26T00:20:00.004+08:00

You made me crumple into tears,

just when I thought I was strong enough to make the

right decision.

I thought my resolve was there,

instead your words shatter it like glass.

I wish I never pressed the link "send".

It's too late.

Our ties are broken.

Connection forever lost.

Bestie, I'll miss you.

Will you?

Man in black will always be my love.

2009-07-25T21:42:00.000+08:00

YESH! Blogger is partly back. The toolbar is not in place yet. Soon, soon.

I have decided to join this dance class with dots(: It's gonna be awesome with her! Be fit and have fun at the same time. Haha!

Today service was awesome. I need to stand. For something.

I think I shocked her into silence. That's what break-ups do.

Pink Q-tips

2009-07-24T21:02:00.002+08:00

Oh so sian, Blogger's so sucky.

I feel like changing to something else.

If you are in a big mess, you should do something about it? That's the only advice I can give. Else, it will snowball and bury you alive. (:

I'm looking forward to food-eating with Char and Dots hopefully? Hee hee!

alicia

Go Go your Own way. Like everythings fine.

2009-07-23T19:26:00.002+08:00

Isn't is so annoying when people leave you OUT ON PURPOSE. Go on. Only when I asked did you tell me what you have been planning. Act like you are surprised. Hurt me by asking other people to plan it with you. Go on. Sometimes, I am not the insensitive one. You are. To think you are an adult somemore. Don't you know that one of your "responsibilities" is to inform ME? So I guess you "FORGOT" then.

F it. Small people do small things like that. I won't be small by "Me and Who planning it".

If this goes on, I'm gonna leave too. So what if God is in the House but the people are the ones who let people like me slip away.

You know who you are.

Chapteh and five stones!

2009-07-22T19:28:00.003+08:00

Hee hee, I still can't get blogger up and working. But doing my best to type! Its totally screwed up if you want to know(:

HAHA! Yesterday at Crescents, my PW Grp and I were totally rocking the seesaw like nobody's business. Plus, taking advantage of the tuckshop. Hello~ Where can you get a meal for $1.80(: Missed St Nicks the whole day yesterday.

I need a vest cos my cous bought some uniqlo tees for me which I feel totally needs a vest to go with it. So shopping mode is on!

Ahh, my team is at JustAcia eating icecream and I'm tidying up at home. LOL.

Hey fran, you settling down fine? : D Ahhh, pls come back in the hols and then we can hang out everyday without fear of the maths monster coming to chase us(:

Next month, will mark one year in HoGc. You won't be there to celebrate it with me. The next year and the next, and the next. Then again, when it's over, it's over. No point this being a one-sided affair.

This is so sad, I don't have anybody I can really pour out my feelings to. I don't wanna bother anyone of you man. You guys are leading fufiling lifes now, and I don't wanna be a damper(:

Trust me, I'm getting over it that you are living a life without me. (:

Randomness is taking over me as I procrastinate on doing impt stuff. hee hee.

P.s Bestie, I miss you terribly. Then again, I've been going round missing everybody nowadays aye..

SAT-PST LIA'S PREACHING!

love,
alicia

Cheerios

2009-07-21T23:19:00.001+08:00

Blogger is right now screwed up on my screen. I don't know the format and shit.

Sista,
I miss you.
Sis.

A deer caught in the flashlights...

2009-07-19T22:46:00.004+08:00

...looks like me!

Today I was very very blur. I think my brain was malfunctioning. I was super not aware of my surroundings, not sharp, not clear. In all, I was not myself today.

Like when I saw the book everlyn and my dear team made for me-- "IT" huh. Didn't realise.

Like when I was taking out Chris card when he was 1m away from me.

Like when I was so loud and insensitive to people's feelings..

And then, I started to go downhill. Some person's actions and the way she talked to me made me feel very sad and I regretted telling her some stuff in the past because her attitude, although she was older than me, was quite sad. But I forgive her lah. I have learnt not to be so nitpicky. So I wont be angry even if noone noticed I wasn't there when they celebrated Chris birthday. Hee hee. I don't grudge that easily ok Siok!

I just want to laugh happily. I just want to be simple. I don't care if people don't like me or think badly of me. I know I am happy the way I am but I know I will change for the better. Why isit so hard for people to look in the mirror and embrace themselves? It is your own self you really need to love.

I am glad I have ernest who was unexpectedly giving me advice today. Glad to have SiokMei influence me with her way of talking. Happy to joke with Pam. I appreciate my friends(:

Need to pray, need to QT.

alicia!

P.S: Glad to see you happy with him. Its good to know that love does exist in this world.

TO FORGIVE IS TO SET A PRISONER FREE

2009-07-17T22:14:00.004+08:00

AND REALISE THAT THE PRISONER WAS YOU.

(NYCgirl)

"holding anger is a poison
it eats you from inside,
we think that by hating someone
we hurt them...
but hatred is a curved blade
and the harm we do to others
we also do to ourselves."
-mitch alborn

Have we been hurt by someone before?

Someone close? Someone you loved.

Someone whom you shared your real feelings to, and yet it seemed a few months later, you are a stranger to him, as to him.

Tell you what,

close your eyes.

Take a deep breath.

And say: " I forgive you."

Feel better? Forgiveness is so hard to DO. It is easy to say I forgive you but the process of forgiving someone is hard. You still think of all the could have beens and what ifs and the things you've done together and wonder, was it worth it?

You then think of the things they done to hurt you. Consciously. Where exactly did it hurt you in your heart? Your pride? Your time? Your trust and faith in that person?

You say I forgive you and I will forget you. You will never be in my life again.

So why is it that my heart still aches when I see you? Or I wonder what are you doing with that girl hanging on your arm. And those new bunch of friends. Do they know who you truely are?

DONT erase that person from your life. Just dont INCLUDE that person in your life. Learn from the experience he gave you and learn to let go, learn to love even more, learn to be happy without that person.

And one day, I believe you will look back,

and just smile.

LOVE MUCH,

alicia

Amazing

2009-07-17T00:03:00.003+08:00

God is so amazing!
I am blogging and not feeling guilty for the first time in months!
I'm blogging cos I have finished my HW!!!
Although I still have E.O.M to do, but my maths is done, chem is TWO tutorials infront, econs HW is also done! GP also! WOW!
Although it was hard to keep my faith when I saw my results, little did I know God was looking after me. Slowly but surely, I caught up with my undone Hw! God is like my Father, looking after my studies too! What I felt was that He led me to organize my time properly (rmb my To-do lists? It helped alot!) and He appointed people who were hardworking beside me in school to influence me to study! God is so awesome man.
Right now, I have to focus on revising ALL the chapters one by one, getting to know it and practicing.

Nicholas told me to be radical for God and not extreme!

Yes, I can serve and still do well for studies.
This is a season to excel in studies no matter what setback we face!
JC students! JIAYOUS!

I can finally sleep at 12am and not 2am.

Cheers!
alicia

U, U, U

2009-07-15T23:26:00.002+08:00

For my maths, bio and chem.

I got a U, U, U.

For a moment, I felt so freaking upset with myself and scared that I would not get promoted.

Then I told myself to stop this mental crap and start doing some work.

Not going to blame God, it is me who caused this.

p.s if anyone has good tuition do tell me? or else i'm gonna sink in this sea.

>.<

We want the world to know.

2009-07-15T00:37:00.002+08:00

If you think you are important,

feel important,

act important.

And you will be important.

No more feeling useless(:

Seriously, sista and HIM have something going on > : )

So ai mei.

Life in NJC is so boring as compared to Get's life in YJC.

Yet I am so motivated to study hard and glorify God.

I want to study because I want to be a person of substance and not just wing my way in society.

I don't care if I'm not doing crazy stuff in school, or having as much fun as I did in St nicks, as long as I know that I am studying hard and not letting God down, as long as I have a simple heart of loving people who are unloved, loveless, I know that God will be pleased with me.

For things done for the Kingdom of God will always remain.

I feel really happy today!

Today, my goal of loving unconditionally was reconfirmed again.

Know I'm walking in the right direction this time(:

God challenged me a while back.

$1000 for building fund.

I've already started selling my things.

As I sow, I will reap!

I do this willingly!

I love my God and my church!

love,alicia

Sye!

2009-07-13T23:52:00.006+08:00

Yoohoo! Today was fun! But I can't say just in case he reads my blog today!

He is gonna love it!

I tried doing a To-Do list.

It ended up being 3-page long.

With 20 plus plus boxes to be ticked.

And 10 other notes of "take note!"

LOL. It doesn't help!

Cheered up seeing Dots(:

Her family is really awesome!

HAHA! I think her arms, legs are weird.

I need to improve and build a great portfolio!

Praise God for helping me through those nights I felt like dying(:

He is so lovely.

Isn't He?

alicia

My Best Friend

2009-07-12T23:16:00.003+08:00

I'm stressed.

Very freaking stressed.

I have,

tons of relationship problems made up in my mind, by my mind,

Evaluation of Material,

character issue problems,

chem tutorial,

maths tutorial,

Rainy sundays.

2009-07-11T21:28:00.007+08:00

I saw the sky was like pinky-red so I bet it's gonna RAIN tonight!
Yay! I like it(: I like snuggling in my blankie and waking up cool and fresh!

I can sense the air cooling. Rain soon!

I thereby announce Dorothy as my spiritual daughter!

Yesterday, talking to her, made me realise she hungers for God on the inside genuinely! Awesomeness, I love this girl(:

She is really wanting to grow, and you know what? God is drawing closer to you this very minute! Don't give up no matter what!

Pastor How is really the best.

No limitations.

I dream that my fashion line will be globalized before I die.

I dream that before I age to 21, I will lead a CG of 10 Brilliant people.

I dream to serve God and be a pillar to Him.

I dream to be an inspiration.

I dream big, and God will multiply it.

P

2009-07-10T23:44:00.003+08:00

Prophesies.

They can come to pass or they will never ever happen.

And you are the deciding factor.

Prophesies are to guide you.

So if you don't make the effort, no one can.

-to the person who thinks this is meant for you.

(jak & jill)

GIVENCHY HAUTE COUTURE FALL/WINTER 2009

It's the best(: Check it out!

p.s Pastor A.R Bernard preached the best sermon I have heard! It's still sinking in.

Those who are coming this sunday, I'm so happy for you! You are in for a great sermon(:

Poker Face you

2009-07-09T18:33:00.007+08:00

Yesterday is history; tomorrow is a mystery. But today is a gift! That’s why they call it the present.” - Kung Fu Panda

How's life for everyone?

Reckon there's really nothing to tag about my posts.

They have been sounding somber, like someone passed away. : D

heehee!

I got my shoes!

They fit perfectly!! Thank you Char!

Today was so HOT!

Had a one-hour lecture in a lecture theatre WITHOUT air-con.

It was so suffocating you could catch H1N1.

(olsens anon)

Well, they ain't that bad right(:
They are imperfectly perfect. Really my inspiration.

Catch ya tmr,

alicia

aint no love enough

2009-07-08T19:33:00.004+08:00

(a new muse)

I got squashed and hit by bus doors again.

It was even WORSER than last time.

This time the doors full body slam me ok.

I stood there shouting " DONT CLOSE!" damn alot of times.

Stupid bus uncle.

And all those NJC people who laughed at me!!!! : /

And then not enough ah, later board bus almost fell down. D :

HMMPH.

I wanna learn Jap, korean, french and german language.

I wanna learn ballet.

I wanna re-learn my piano.

And most importantly,

I reaalllly want to learn how to PROPERLY sew.

I aim to do that in 10yrs!

YAY!(:

For now, I will just study(:

Teezer

2009-07-07T23:10:00.003+08:00

I used Fran's coaster today!(:

But super scared I will break it cos I PAH my cup down one.

I'm in debt to myself, again.

School is so boring,

endless, mindless studying.

Boring routines, cycle of tests and failures.

On the other hand, I still have that promise(:

In a season of loneliness. God is telling me to seek Him. Where is my determination??

You're jumping as I walk.

2009-07-06T23:34:00.002+08:00

Watched Ice Age 3 with Gets, YL, nic, prashan and ryan

HILARIOUS!!!!!!!!

Laughed and laughed.

Wished I had watched it in 3D!(:

Movies I wanna watch : Up 3D! and Gamer.

Have given up uploading pictures.

Blogger's sick.

welllll, school's starting.

I have $0.

Hows that to start

: D

love, alicia

bleagh

2009-07-05T23:38:00.003+08:00

Blog is dying.

Stupid circumstances ruin a wonderful day.

Apple came church today!

She is a prettier Yingling!

Yingling is pretty too.

Did I mention blog is dying?

Yo!

2009-07-04T22:10:00.004+08:00

When I'm super free, I blog twice a day.

Recently, Times featured an article putting down Twitter (To my delight! MUAHAHA!)

Nothing ever EVER beats face-to-face conversation.

And this was the basis of my argument for my GP essay.

"Is communication technology making people worser communicators?"

WHY would I want to know what you had for breakfast. tsktsk

Then again, I'm contradicting myself by blogging. LOL.

Like why would you want to know what is happening in my life?

But Blogger is a different type of Twitter.

It has no word limitation.

All differences end there!

anws,

I love you guys,

cos, well,

Just Because.

Alicia.

P.s! Pst Kent Munsey was so awesome today!(;

HS

2009-07-04T10:23:00.002+08:00

(Frou Frou)

YeS~ Blogger can upload le.

Woke up feeling even shittier than yesterday.
All sweaty and mangled.
My family doesnt know I'm sick cos I still wanna go church one.
My temp hit 40 at one point.
You must be wondering WHY the freak am I online?
haha.

Im listening to Hillsong! Praying I will get better for today's service.

I guess I'm not the best person you would like to hang out with nowadays.
Duh.

I'm cheering up!
Alicia

How long more to memories

2009-07-03T20:33:00.002+08:00

Today was a f sucky day.

Lit up by the presence of Vinson and Chris.

I don't feel like facing you,

cos you will look at me with reproachful eyes.

I don't feel like talking to you,

cos our relationship is built not on painful experiences that bond us,

instead, it is built on commands,

and ulterior motives.

Would you have been my friend if no one told you to be mine?

I doubt so.

Because, if I was really your friend, something as basic as telling me you are quarantined you could have easily done.

Beginning to have the shadow of doubt,

please don't expect me to bow down,

be submissive,

I am who I am.

If you don't like it, fine, I will leave.

My bloody head hurts,

to think that my CG would be dedicated enough to go to shuyu's house was wishful thinking.

Why the hell did I drag my tired self there just to realise slowly,

it was only the four of us.

You planned it,

yet you don't even give us the grace of appearing or telling me you are not even coming.

And you.

oh lier lier pants on fire.

Freak today.

Sick

2009-07-03T09:28:00.003+08:00

Not feeling very well today when I woke up.

So I took out the thermometer I've used since Pri sch.

Turned it on.

Stuck it in my mouth.

It goes beep beep beep (for like 3min)

and my mouth kinda wanted to screw up and shrivel and die.

Plus there was alot of saliva.

Temp: 37.78

Yes I am sick. Am I??

Panadol here I come~

NO, I do not have H1N1.

* took it 3 times : 37.73, 37.97, 37.97!! : (

Ok, Char says it is slight fever. (: Phew.

Hmm, I am in the dump.

2009-07-02T23:12:00.004+08:00

Let me be patient, let me be kind

Make me unselfish without bein' blind

Though I may suffer, I'll envy it not

And endure what comes, 'cause he's all that I got and tell him

Seriously, I feel like I can strangle my sista sometimes.

I do love her,

BUT

there is a fine line between NFs and your friend.

Who would you choose to save if We were drowning? Who would you think of first?

I think it has reached this point where I won't bother asking you already, cos I can predict what you will do and yet not do it.

Seems like a petty thing to be angry for,

oh yes,

I will still love you but I know this forever will be a mark.

WELLS.

Besides that, today I met up with Fran and she had this HUGE peice of news for me.

She MIGHT be coming back and hearing her P.O.V I reckon she will be coming back. HAHA!(: But I don't mind! Do know what it feels like to be homesick and left out. We ( I ) ate at pastamania then shopped. SAW sancia! Than did MANI&PEDI! Than watched transformers wit Nigel, Ernest, Gets and friends and FRAN! Spotted loopholes in the story plot. But good movie. (abit sick though)

OHHH, if you are bored already skip this part.

MANI and PEDI was so fun! I mean the person KNEW it was my first time like having a professional mani&pedi cos she said I had ALOT of dead skin. At one point she was like SANDPAPERING my sole of the feet! I felt so tickly I started laughing. BUT fran was like the OPP of me?? She was like so calm whereas I was like UH whats next and was all flustered and stuff. haha! It was fun!(:

And this part is dedicated to the princessy Fran(: Who will intro-ed me to mani and pedi and all the shops that I shop at now. You rock, girl!

So see ya guys soon,

alicia

Live:

2009-07-01T20:53:00.004+08:00

Seriously, Blogger is making me nuts. Lousy server :/

Finally finished my exams! Am happy! Chem was even worser than Bio.

Did not help that LT2 was freezing my brains off, HOW do I think if I'm cold huh?

HAHA! I guess that's an excuse only lah. LOL.

But glad it was over,

thank You God!

Now I should start thinking of a list of celebri-action.

1) Hang out with Fran.

2) Cook for family.

3) Manipedi

- Can't believe Gets dunno which part of the body Mani is for and which part of the body Pedi is for. Just to clarify : Mani-Hands & Pedi-FEET. -

4) Study. *Cos I barely did for this CTs.

5) Shop.

I really love opening letters,

recieved Char's one today! MINs after she said to check mail.

The tingly anticipation,

the sweet feeling of letters (in this case cards),

reading them,

knowing that these people took the time and effort to think and write,

and post it to you!

Don't be surprised if I asked you for your Add(:

alicia.

p.s Listened to Crazier more than 10times, scary that I am NOT joking.

If you are warm, you are so gone.

2009-06-30T18:53:00.003+08:00

You are like the winter sun,

shine your rays down on me,

yet witholding your warmth.

BIO was A KILLER. Found myself dozing off awake like Dots, finished the 3hr paper 45min early, stoned there while others were madly scribbling. I had already squeezed my crap juice to the max already loh. Was quite embarassed at my 6line answer for the 10m essay qns. Ok, for the 3 10m essay qns.

Maths was real ok, Mrs koh pickyness on neatness paid off! At least I won't get 2m deducted for bad presentation cos I BARELY wrote anything. Tsk..

HAHA! I just realised that I've been talking about school??!

OHH, dots! I finally figured out what's Crestar. Lets go TMR? My Chem paper is in the afternoon so I can make it like in the morning(:

Ciao'!

alicia.

p.s Going to sleep now! LOL.

His favourite colour is green.

2009-06-29T18:49:00.004+08:00

Be careful to not show my feelings.

For fear, you trample over it.

Two exams today,

econs and GP.

6 Bloody Hours of Non-stop Writing stuff I DONT EVEN think is correct.

Butt is sore from sitting so long.

Going back to school is pretty amazing. I didn't forget my promise(:

On the down side, I have to wake at like 6am??

Have to do HW. EWW.

Blogger is acting up lah!! I can't upload photos :/

Pray hard to sub-pass BIO and pass MATHS tmr!

SEE YA!

hope I am still standing then!

Mush!

2009-06-28T23:53:00.004+08:00

What is innocence?

Isit that angel doe blue eyes seemingly looking at you,

yet you feel your heart is being peeked at?

Or isit pure, kind thoughts you think? Or pure evil thoughts.

It also could be actions from your heart.

Maybe a simple smile would do to qualify.

And the Little Prince said to the Man: "Grownups never understand anything for themselves and it is tiresome for children to be always explaining things to them."

So it is, innocence can be maturity.

Pst Joakim service was one of the best ever. Yesterday I was doing QT, and the Holy Spirit said to me, "Follow me, follow my ways." I was like HUH? But I was willing.

And today, Pst's sermon WAS TO ANSWER THE QNS of what it meant to follow God.

TO LIVE FOR OTHERS.

Not be a self-centred, selfish christian,

but a christian who thinks of the unsaved constantly.

" I will die better than you"

Others.

Awesome.

Open-ing-my-heart

2009-06-28T00:00:00.002+08:00

If you find that you are in a cycle of high and lows,

stop it.

I've been through it so many times that I've become sick of it.

Instead of re-charging you, it drains you.

Little by little.

Why do people leave the church without knowing its core values.

If you can't part with money, I believe there is something wrong with your relationship with God. Is your money more important than God? Do you place more importance in your money than in God? You say that we are too young to give, and that our income is still not stable then how isit that a sec school student can give $50 for a single offering and we can't?

So that's why I save up so willingly to tithe every month, because this is the way God teaches us to put Him first in our life above all our needs and wants and desires. Because if we can't even do that, it means we prefer the material things of the world rather than the eternal gifts of God.

So why get angry when told to give? After all, we are building the House of God and not our own houses.

*Sorry if this is controversial, but I got so annoyed when someone scolded the church for saying that God gives more when a person gives more is fake. Then what do you say about the stories of blessings on people who sacrifice much to give? Wahlau, that person even complained we sing the same song too many times. I don't like him sia.

touched to the max

2009-06-26T23:51:00.010+08:00

You know how sometimes, you feel so surprised you go into shock?

That was me when my team -- Siok, Gets, Dots, Ever, Chris, Ernest, Qilin collaborated to spring a surprise celebration on me.

wahh dots what "Meet friend" ah!

I was super touched because I felt they really loved me since they bothered to even come down to bishan and blow balloons and plan all this! (Pls don't admit you were forced, don't spoil the magic(:)

Shocked to the max. *was speechless.

Really nice cake(:

OHH BALLOONS(:

My favourite picture. Its eerie we almost seem in love. I mean I love dots. HAHA! I wish it was my husband!!(:

Muahaha I feel like on the top of the world! Literally.

My beloved Number 2!

Man, they really rock my world!

Muacks to all of ya!

And my two most beloved- Gets my sis/bro and Dots!

Apparently, I am the first person who ever burnt down her own cake. Haiz, I thought the paper smoking only, didn't know that it was really burning? I am innocent! *edit* QILIN JUST TOLD ME MY CAKE WAS TIRAMISU. WASTED SIA. URGH

The cake stole my limelight.

HAHA! I am very extremely awesomely happy. On the MRT, people gave me dirty looks cos the balloons took up 2 persons space. I just thought they had no childhood. Tsk tsk. They are just jealous that I have balloons.

YES, this is the bunch of people I yearn to be close to, to know them deeper and be their friends that they can trust. All so adorable.

Had an awesome birthday because of them!

Felt awful full cos I had two buffets today! One with gets and dots at Sakae and another one with family at Holiday Inn.

I feel very blessed. Thank you God(:

Love, alicia

p.s DOUBLENUMBER'S UP!

p.ps Qilin talked to me on msn today. He wished my happy b dae for the last few mins of the day. So awesome. I really love him despite his eccentric ways. Really treasured that short convo with him. Going to fast(:

p.p.ps Thank you Siok Mei! She accidentally sent me sms that told the team to meet today at what time. LOL. But I blur until didnt suspect anything. Thank you for loving me the way you do(: I love ya too!

Optimus Prime

2009-06-26T01:45:00.004+08:00

is so HOT(:

I'm 17!

Let us not give the years too much credit

for how far we have come,

for what we have become.

To love the smell of rain, the cold rain on our faces.

Love the thunder and the sleep it cracks open.

What we have now. And what will come after.

- Cyril Wong

I felt shitty today, cos I slept for 4 hours only. HOW am I going to wake up for exam at this rate! Oh dear. No wonder looking at clothes today just gave me a bigger headache. The stupid bumpy 855 bus didn't help but made me realise I do have butt bones.

But it felt good to just hang out.(:

I can't believe I didn't buy a single thing from my wishlist. And I'm in debt to dots. hmm.

This birthday is so unusual. I've stopped counting who wishes me well, what presents I get, no more thoughts of a wild frilly sweet 17th birthday bash.

Instead, I treasure those whom I already I have. Trusting in God to guide me furthur down this road I've chosen. I'll bottle these memories, and release them when need be(:

Thank you guys! I really love every single one of you. Even Qilin(:

alicia.

p.s Horrifying on wed to meet phina, maths teacher and sewing teacher.

You spin me around.

2009-06-25T13:26:00.003+08:00

Seriously, I don't know why I blog. It's like baring my soul to all you people there. It's scary because they know. Yet it's sad if they dont.

As you can see, if you read my blog, I don't speak in riddles like some fellow bloggers. Then whats the point if I have to guess it? And then, after a while, I don't read that person's blog anymore cos I'm always left befuddled. : D

I'm becoming SO cynical. Oh my gawd.

I feel like crapping.

Why did God tell Abraham to kill his son and stop him at the last minute? Why is God using us like pawns? I know it is to test our faith but why this way?

I should be studying but I'm not.

When I return to school, I will be facing people I don't really want to see.

I love dots(:

I miss QR. We both know we are in the wrong. So if you ever see this, sms me k.(: I promise i will reply this time. It's gonna be hard, I'm willing to try.

*something has gone SOK in my brain.

BYE!

It's never what it seems, so don't forget to breathe..

2009-06-25T00:50:00.004+08:00

PHEWW, finally have my MIO back.

Actually I was getting used to it, no spending of hours poring over fash blogs, and FB, "twitter" that sort of nonsense.

(Sartorialist)

Anws, so I've been studying ALOT. But as you can see, I'm slacking right now. Sheesh.

I'm feeling pretty tired. But satisfied being me myself and I.

I sound so narcassistic!! haha!

These 3 days w/o internet made me return back to books books books and more books! I honestly love books. I remembered when I was in primary school, and I was quite alone, books were escapism from reality and entry into sanctuary. So books are like comfort "food" to me! haha.

AND TO THAT SOMEONE OUT THAT WHO THINKS IM EVIL:

I have to say this, or I feel unjustified. You say I'm evil, then what are you? Honestly, I DO NOT remember doing anything bad to you. All I did was sincerely try to be nice to you from the VERY MOMENT I KNEW YOU OK. If I did anything wrong, PLEASE tell me straight in my face and not be so RUDE to me. And I will definately apologize to you. But it is against me to FAKE that I don't mind what you are doing. You acting like you hate me so much is getting on my nerves, and please stop acting so childish and immature.

Also, I feel that such behaviour TOWARDS ANY PERSON is not acceptable and I seriously feel that you should tell him that and not let him do whatever he wants cos that only makes him feel he is in the right. Which obviously is not. And hello? I HAVE FEELINGS TOO? So please DO SOMETHING. Or I'm so gonna feel like strangling him.

Ok, that was alot. REALLY had to get it off my chest. Can you imagine this person, at any given chance, snorted at me, mocked me, even kicked me. (Thank God you said sorry) aiyohhh.. I'm not sure if this is the right way to say my feelings out, but I'm not that scared little alicia anymore. I can stand up for my own rights. And I will take up any responsibility too.

p.s I still love him. Unconditionally. Not that I didn't in the first place. :/

Thank God I don't feel like sleeping. Gonna study now.

I laugh, isit your joke, or isit me?

2009-06-21T15:26:00.004+08:00

(Vain And Vapid)

YAY(: I am now typing my birthday wishlist on impromptu(:

1) A chain necklace very much like dorothy's!!

2) Tee-shirts (graphic, tie-dye, BASIC ASYMMETRICAL TEE!)

3) polariod camera

4) ZARA stuffs(:

5) Boyfriend Jeans

6) A cross on a chain

7) Do manicure - can you believe I've never ever done a manicure before!

9) DN to be successful!

10) Draw closer to God!

Ok, I sound so materialistic lah!!

But oh wells(:

Don't really expect much for this birthday, seriously. I didn't remember my birthday until this week!! I guess that, I am learning that the world does not revolve around me. And I've been focusing on other stuff too! : D

Jay's leaving tmr! BBQ today. How fast time flies..

See ya!

Alicia

A shaded veil.

2009-06-19T22:57:00.003+08:00

Vanessa Jackman.

Till I see You face to face,

Grace and Faith will take me through.

Freak it, I hate it when people act close to people they barely know.

I also hate it when people don't believe in you that you can do it, and in the end, do it for you, without telling you.

*chilllllllll

: D

ok fine now.

ANWWS,

sorry char! I was supposed to watch Hannah Montana with you but I late!! Haha, but it honestly was funny hearing you talk about you out-of-shape teeth, finding automatic erasers for lazy people, eating sinful food. I'm not sure whether I am cut out for business, however, I decided I will be the creative brain and you the business brain? Really excited for the blog. I've done some sketches already. Was thinking let's go take B&W photos! : D No need proffessional, just take ourself. HAHA! (: Really inspired today.

DC was awesome today(: I really feel I must be faithful to the small things!!!

See ya!

alicia.

p.s food + fun + fashion + friends. FAB(:

What the heck sia

2009-06-17T22:26:00.003+08:00

I'm happy. Reallllly!(:
I am affected by alot of small things, and then they snowball cos I don't say it out and just keep it in my heart. And then, I find myself in this cycle of ranting on my blog.

But it's gonna stop now(:

I realise, if I give, unconditionally, and even if NOONE sees it. God does. And I guess, although I crave that knowing by man, God's knowing will tide over it(:

I am happy for everything I have right now,
for the hurts - cos I know I am growing from it,
for the love - although it's little,
for the sad things, little things.

And most of all, for God(: Who found me and saved me(:

p.s FRANS COMING BACK IN 13 DAYS

muacks(:
alicia!

I've been thinking all night..

2009-06-17T11:47:00.002+08:00

that sucky week has crept into this week.

Why do people have no will to fight on for God and instead choose to doubt Him and church?

Why do people proclaim they love you, and yet show no actions of doing so?

Why do I feel that I am already trying my best but the right people arent.

I'm so tired, and yeah the prophesy was great. Somehow, the obstacles just grew bigger.

: (

I'm not emo-ing! I just feel super unjustified. Bleaghhhh.

Oh wells, besides all that, charissa and me changed our blog to BLOGGER!

so its doublenumber.blogspot.com ok(: Watch out for it(:

HI there

2009-06-16T02:35:00.002+08:00

Renewed

Refreshed

even Re-Faithed

I'm running after God.

Tmr's post is gonna be awesome(: MTV NIGHT!

p.s Proud of many many people.

sheeshh

2009-06-14T22:54:00.003+08:00

" When it comes to Saturday and Sunday, your heart is always there"

" Why you spend so much time there?"

" You are still below 21 years, I still feed and give you money, so I control you."

Another few reasons to grow up quicker.

Watched Helthum (isit?) 123 with Gets today. It set me thinking unlike chick flicks! Like, seriously, what if you were a hostage and you were going to die like in an hour. But it was fun fun fun(:

Zone camps tmr worx.

Are you reaady.

I think my mom's not.

0 days,

end of the sucky week(:

alicia

*ok, my card just got confiscated. I am penniless. SHUCKSS

Touch my hand.

2009-06-13T22:31:00.003+08:00

I think David Archie lyrics is funny.

"I see the sparkle of a million flashlights.

A wonder wall of stars"

I think a million flashlights DON'T SPARKLE.

THEY HURT YOUR EYES.

Try again, Archie(:

Todays service was DEEP man, and truthfully, I can feel our relationship straining, that something is different. You can feel it too right?

I MISS CHAR lehh, like hanging out a few hours seriously is too little.

1moreday,

alicia

Tell me where you've been hiding..

2009-06-12T22:43:00.005+08:00

(Park&Cube)

...tell me what I've been feeling.

This week sucks. And, it's not even over.

This week felt like a million lightbulbs going out at the same time,

thousand thorns in my heart,

hundreds of new wrinkles on my mother's face,

and leaving me,

gasping for air.

DC really reinforced my whole conviction thing with Loving Unconditionally.

A shoutout to my close friends:

I love you for who you are deep inside,

insecure, sad, emo, changing, unsure,weird, outcast,

I love you still(:

I just wanna be like pastors(:

2 more days to the end of this sucky week,

alicia

FAITH

2009-06-12T00:23:00.004+08:00

(glamourous)

We walk by faith and not by sight. 2 Corinthians 5:7

So what AM I doing moaning, and groaning about life.
When JOB had everything taken from his life, he never scolded God nor resented God.
So what AM I doing, feeling all low,
when he's sick,
when hw is behind,
when things aren't going they way you wanted,
and when you have to choose - between your family and Him.

I HAVE TO GROW IN FAITH.
God's testing me alot these few days.

hmmph, alicia

p.s I can't believe I figured all this out in today's PM. IT ROCKS(:

twentysixtwenty

2009-06-10T23:30:00.004+08:00

twentysixtwenty.wordpress.com

It's crazy,

when Char suggested it,

and now i think about it,

I have come to a dead-end somewhat in my life,

but this, God has opened a new door for me.

How awesome(:

I'm not going to say 20.6.20 is going to be the best.. YET.

However, I do know,

that good things will blossom out of it(:

A stronger bond b/w us fashion loving friends,

and endless possibilities and opportunities.

Yup, a step of faith man.

Love, TWENTYSIX(:

p.s: am suffering from heatstroke cos I'm not allowed to on fan, cos I forgot to off it for the whole day I was out. WUNDERFUL , alicia.

Crazier

2009-06-09T21:31:00.001+08:00

With the cry of my heart,

God, I promise everything.

If my GF can live longer.

Sh*t

2009-06-09T20:47:00.003+08:00

(NAST)

Crap. I have to suffer crap.

Wonder how you guys can read through my crap too. Haha.

Went Prayer Meeting. Woke 5am, left house 6am, reached church 7am. Ended 8am. Ate till 9am. Slacked and sleeped till 11am. Went for interview till 1pm. Waited for Gets till 1.30pm. Met Gets 2pm. Ate KFC till 3pm. Study till 6pm. "Sian-ed" out till 7pm. Went home. *If you read everything, you really rock. Pat yourself on your back cos you read all my crap.

I think I am beginning to have my own opinions on things, and I really don't mean to offend. But, I still am going to make a stand on stuffs.

Trying to reach out to you,

touch my hand.

Look over here, and find me.

2009-06-08T21:05:00.003+08:00

Hi Chio Bu. Why dont you paint yourself purple and be mine(:

So gorgeousss.

Black and purple and blue,

seems like my heart is bruised.

So let me see your smile,

to turn my heart,

all rainbow again.

Today was soo cool(: I went to Children Little Museum after getting lost for like 1/2 hour. But it was so worth it! We girlfriends have to go there someday(: HAHA!

Then went to meet Gets and Yiling, studied some at LJS and headed home.

So nervous about being CEG admin. Dont know what I'm doing is right or wrong! MAN, it's like walking on marbles. I will jiayoussssss! HAHA!

love, alicia

yappity

2009-06-07T22:37:00.003+08:00

Stupid things I do, is press the Send button on my phone.

Check phone 5min later, and I see a prompt.

" 3 Sms Pages. Send now?"

SIANNESS.

Dot's attended service today! I really hope God will touch her heart, and plant her in HoGc. Praying God will work miracles in her life! I love Dots man(: Another of my soul sista in church is awesome. Thank you God to the max!!

You are my star.

2009-06-07T11:02:00.003+08:00

Today is a braaaand new day.

I'm starting afresh(:

"all i can do is be me, whoever that is."
-bob dylan

It's time to build bridges.

Erps.

2009-06-07T00:16:00.003+08:00

Me: " I look like Gets ah?"

B: " YEAH. But, you not as perky as her. And not as funny. "

I was taken aback since she looked serious when she said that.

Maybe this is why I like hanging out with non-christians better. The only reason being, they dont take advantage of the title "Christian".

Through Primary and Secondary school, I've seen the backstabbing, I've been through almost every heartbreak. Cried hard from every broken friendship. And through this years of emotional ups and downs, layers and layers of coldness, defensiveness has built up around my heart.

And it shows. My actions shows it, my words speak it. There is a wall around my heart, things I wont breathe to a single soul. I won't open up anymore. Because there is this uncertainty that, even if you do tell someone, what is that someone going to react.

This is what gossiping, backstabbing, fakeness, bitching, insecurities do to you. They harden you, make you a mechanical machine. Devoid of the ability to love.

And this is what I'm trying to do. To love. And not expect anything in return.

To not be upset if you are not the first person to be called when someone returns, to not be hurt if someone else is preferred. Banish my insecurities, and replace it with strength.

This shall be my conviction.

Today was a bittersweet day.

I'm burdened.

The beautiful thing on earth

2009-06-05T18:28:00.005+08:00

You may not know this

but every time you talk to me

or even pass me by

my heart rate goes into overdrive..

-Naomi's blog.

Chill, I'm not feeling like that now. But, truthfully, a few months ago I did.

I was so hyped up whenever I saw you. My breath would be shallower, my heart rate a little faster. I would suddenly be quiet, hoping you wouldn't notice that my hands, although clasped together, was trembling.

But, after praying, that although my heart says yes, God says no.

So, I put a full stop to this.

However, reading naomi's blog just made me reminisce all over again.

An end isn't always bad, it just means a new beginning.

And, with my First Love in my life, I'm just as happy with or without.

(credits:http://www.taghrid.cc/)

Wash my Heart again.

2009-06-05T11:27:00.005+08:00

Was wondering how to wear high-waisted. You guys should do this! Just imagine what is nice, THEN TRY IT ON. That's what I did! LOL. This way you never go wrong. *I hope. **You can click to see bigger image.

PLS PRAY FOR ME THAT MY TEACHER WILL CONFIRM APPROVE PW!! (Our group has done like 8 drafts????)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DO2s896dP3I

CRAZIER(:

I never gone with the windJ
ust let it flow
let it take me where it wants to go
till you open the door there's so much more
i never seen it before
i was tryin to fly
but i couldnt find wings
but you came along and you changed everything
you lift my feet off the ground you spin me around
you make me crazier crazier
feels like im falling
and i'm lost in your eyesyou make me crazier crazier crazier

i watched from a distance as you made life your own
every sky was your own kind of blue
and i wanted to know how that would feel
and you made it so real
you showed me something that i couldn't see
you opened my eyes and you made me believe

you lift my feet off the ground you spin me around
you make me crazier crazier
feels like im falling
and i'm lost in your eyes
you make me crazier crazier crazier

ohhhhh

Baby you showed me what living is for
i dont want to hide anymore orrrreee

you lift my feet off the ground you spin me around
you make me crazier crazier
feels like im fallingand i'm lost in your eyes
you make me crazier crazier crazier
crazier craizer

This is not happening.

2009-06-04T21:55:00.005+08:00

CRAZIER BY TAYLOR SWIFT IS LIKE SO AWESOME! She writes good lyrics(:

I cannot believe Dots did not email me! Haha, it's ok. I AM SECURE(: I hope you're having fun still. EAT SHOP AND EAT MORE(:

I really hate people who, when I ask them to do something with me, then they agree, and they dont do it or wait for you to make the first move. Seriously pisses my butt off.

It's really sad that Christian Lacroix declared bankrupt. Just when he was beginning to convert some awesome couture to ready-to-wear.(Lucky he is covered from creditors!!)The last fashion house :' ( I'm so sad.. I know there is John Galliano, Maison Martin Margiela, but I really liked CL: (

This post is dedicated to him.

(style.com)

SEE WHAT I MEAN>

Would gladly wear the shoes for prom or everyday! And would also like a ankle chain!

I've been window-shopping for four days and still counting..

I NEED TO STUDY! SOMEONE MOTIVATE ME.

sobs alicia.

P.S

2009-06-03T22:23:00.001+08:00

I just really like A Perfectly Good Heart by Taylor Swift.

Check it out(: Tell me whether you like it!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dhuEVa44CE4

Ignore the video. LOL.

What are you thinking of?

2009-06-03T21:54:00.009+08:00

"Imperfection is beauty; madness is genius; and it is better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring."-Marilyn Monroe, if survived, would be 83(:

"So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure, that you really are strong, and you really do have worth."-Veronica Shoffstall

Right now, I'm wishing to just hang out with my girlfriends. To talk, to confide, to share, to braid your hair, to laugh with you : D

HAHA! Sometimes, I will start out writing something, and then it leads to something that makes me go :"HUH? How did I end up writing this?" I think this post is like that. Hmmm, today went bugis wit Ever and June and Siok(: I HAVE BEEN WINDOW SHOPPING FOR 3DAYS! THE AGONY OF NOT BUYING. OH! I did buy something! I bought a studded skirt. Shall wear it for MTV night. *winks at Char :D **Yes, I will wear FBTs underneath just like i did for Prom.

Somethings gone wrong with me and bestie, I havent been feeling the very best. Like, we shouldnt talk in riddles anymore and just grow up.

Squeak*

2009-06-03T02:04:00.003+08:00

ZONE CAMP(: I AM SO EXCITED!!

HO HO. Met Nic and Siok today and window shopped. Also talked about stuff! Oh! The agony of not being able to buy clothes I like. I seem to have no fate whatsoever with the following:

1)Vest that has nice cutting, fits me, and is affordable
2)Blazer " "
3)Nice flats that fulfils my requirements!

However, it was fun to go to the high-end shops and ogle and google at the nice priced clothes! : D

Walked super long to "Just Noodles" which turned out to be "Just Acia". CHEAT MY FEELING!!!! And, the root beer filled my tummy with so much gas and bubbles that I didn't finish my food! It was fun, as usual, after the long day I had doing PW since 8am in the morn.

I'm gonna miss Nigel when he is gone, gonna miss Uncle Jay much when he is gone! Come back quickly!

I miss Dorothy, I miss Fran. Seems like there are many people I miss! I even miss Char!!!

ON THE BRIGHT SIDE--- I SAT THE CIRCLE LINE TODAY TO MARYMOUNT! IT'S CLEAN, EMPTY AND THE END OF THE TRAIN HAS WINDOW! WOW(: But the busstop was like what, 1.2km away or something!! I walked so long then I reached I thought I was lost luh! But, the circle line is so cool(:

love ya!

I cannot live like that, all paperwork, and paper smiles.

2009-06-01T23:43:00.006+08:00

HAHA! Guess what happened today! When I was going down the bus, I pushed a guy's face cos my hand didnt grab the handle properly. I didn't realise until I realised what I was not holding the handle, but something oily and soft. I WAS SO PAISEI! My blur habit is kicking in.

I watched Terminator Salvation. Which was NICE(: Christian Bale is HOT(: And he really can act this type of man man, macho role. I liked the touching bits, when the half-human, half-robot guy said "Take mine, Kate". I teared like mad : ' )

It was really awesome hanging out with my team and CG. I was actually very sad after school today because my teacher had scolded us really badly (PW) and especially me since I was the leader. I was so tired and felt deflated sia. However, Koon Yew cheered me up and slowly, I felt much happier(: And with my lovely number 2! haha. What really made my day was Nicholas calling me telling me that I was to go for discipleship classes. I though it was nothing at first but my sista was like "its for zai ppl" hahaha! LOVE HER.

We need to grow, take that next step so God can work in our lifes!

How was your day?

Alicia(:

Right now.

2009-05-31T21:01:00.005+08:00

"A few months ago I'd have patted myself on the back to write such words, but I couldn't have written them. I had to live them first, and now that I'm living them there's no need to write them." --Smoke Bellew by Jack London

So amazing(:

Right now, I feel stressed. In a good way. In project work, team work is as essential as breathing air. However, when one person decides to cut themselves some slack, things start going haywire. And me, the team leader, is expected to pick up the pieces. Someone in the chain is not pulling their weight and its been left to me, to pick up the pieces.

I don't think they will read this, my group members. But, I cant help but feel a little disappointed at them.. Welcome to the real world.

That said, Dot's flew for Taiwan today and I miss her already~ Take care(:

THERE'S ZONE CAMP COMING UP!!! omgosh, really excited for that. Anyone interested just tag(: -Food Cross, MTV night etc etc

HEY GUYS, WOULD YOU WANT TO COME IF MY MOM ALLOWED SLEEPOVER AT MY HOUSE?
Need to get feedback on response so I can saiko my mother(:
If you guys dont mind, both church friends and friends! haha!

ReThink

2009-05-31T00:54:00.002+08:00

My NUMBER ONE(: (cotton on body tee, $10)

This rat-race, this city, this competitive world. People are so addicted to getting stressed, they are hooked to the fact that they have a "purpose" in life, they NEED to be busy to fulfil their "purpose". They treat people like pawns to their ultimate goal. I stay away from such people.

I don't want to have to think about being "cool" all the time, don't have to be wearing the most "in" thing, most importantly don't want to have to try to be "perfect" all the time. Cos in my world, there's only God and me. There's no nonsense about competition and being the best.

God really is my Father. I won't be discouraged by all situations, I will rise up. I will be full of energy to go about and do my Father's business. I am refreshed by God's word today.

I love God(:

alicia

EGO SHIT

2009-05-30T00:39:00.002+08:00

Freak lah, talking to some people EXASPERATES THE HELL OUTTA ME. Tell them something, then they "ok", and then they do it again. Tell them to change, they expect the world to change. Try to help, feel damn PEK CHEK. Think your problems are the biggest in the world? Think again. THINK THAT LIFE IS SUCKY FOR THEM, WHOSE LIFE ISNT. I will still listen, but if you become self-defensive, then too bad, theres nothing I can do to help them.

They dont believe God is that big, that God listens, WHY DISMISS HIM? Why blame Him when He doesnt "reply", and when He does, DISMISS HIM. WOW. They dont believe that God is almighty. SICK OF IT. They dont believe we can help. THEN WHY BELIEVE.

I'm so sorry if I'm being offensive here and this makes them feel defensive. BUT I'VE HAD ENOUGH and I know that I cant keep it in anymore.

Freak it.

ZARA-licious

2009-05-29T23:23:00.005+08:00

man today was awesomeness!
8.30-Woke up, didnt feel like going interview since GPP got rejected and have to go back EVERY SINGLE day of the first week of june. I HATE ***.

9.00+- Went online and chatted abit to char, went to nap.

12.00- Woke and went NP Lib to study ( read my book in the end.)

3.15- Char ponned class! haha(: Headed to buy laptop sleeve. Headed to JP for food. HUNGRYY PEOPLE!

4.00- Decided to eat NYNY(: Where the fun starts!

Char's GIANT meatball pasta(:

: D

: DD

Hungry people are dangerous- meaning STAY AWAY. Or we'll eat you up! Muahaha!

Awww(:

Then, we did what we were best at, SHOPPING!

Went to Marina Square and shopped at ZARA! Our long-distance travel was rewarded with a really nice top and new shoes for me to replace that holey cottonon shoes. Then, on our way to Six, this reporter stopped us to ask us about our buys. And half the time we were like : " Yup, Zara top, Zara top, Zara shoes" 'Best buy?" "ZARA!", we practically screamed at her. HAHA! And they took a picture of us with Char's big RED bag and my ZARA bag(:

It's awesome to shop with Char :D We definately need to meet again so I can pass you the Zara butterfly top and umm, SHOP(:

Hee,

Alicia

Do the IMPOSSIBLE

2009-05-28T10:47:00.004+08:00

I feel like we can do the impossible, I like it. Do the impossible : D Just keep saying that, and you kinda begin to feel you can?!

OHHH, char's like real busy now! JIAYOUS DARL! and DOTS that girl, bought underwear specially for her trip. Sorry gal ; D

*edited

ANWS, things on mah wishlist:

1) GUESS!? YES! It's a polaroid camera! DOTS HAVE YOU ASKED YOUR FRIEND!!!

2) A new cute water bottle to fit my miserably tiny crumpler.

3) A camera like Vanessa's (:

4) Good Quality drumsticks. ( not the CHICKEN WINGS THE DRUM STICKS)

Update:

Cotton On at Novena called me to take up a job for the GSS sales, the pay is good, the experience is good. BUT, I have PW(surveys, interviews) and church and HW. What do you guys think? A while back, my mom remarked, God aint going to pay for my expenses and I said, He will provide for me. Hmm.. Maybe?

As usual, I'm missing you guys.. (:

just some mere ramblings...

2009-05-27T21:16:00.004+08:00

...you guys are very familar with.

Siok, do you remember you asked me whats the difference between a crush and being in love! I have the answer!!!

"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams"Dr. Seuss

Ta-da! Thats the answer(: I love the cat in the hat!

Today:

My PW teacher called me like at 10 and said I have to go to school to pass him research so he can approve, so I made my way there and then stoned there till 5.30 to meet with my grp members and then listened to him crap till 7. And I didnt eat anything since yesterday cos I am on hunger strike.

I can't wait to grow up so I can finally work and fufil my dreams. I hate her too much.

SHIT HAPPENS

2009-05-26T23:04:00.003+08:00

Like how ernest says "SHIT HAPPENS", shit happens. Was elated that I could meet up with charissa who treated me to green tea ice cream ^ ^ that I even skipped lessons, then one hurtful sms could bring my whole world down.

I have the ability to make situations awkward! I dont mean to, but I can't help it.

Some hurts go deep down, deep deep down, and noone will ever understand. I only pray God to heal it, and give me a strong heart to replace this weak one. Thank you for caring, but this is something I have to go through alone. It has become my conviction.

'I don't understand how a woman can leave the house without fixing herself up a little, if only out of politeness.'-Coco Chanel

2009-05-25T17:13:00.007+08:00

(Source: Marie Claire http://www.marieclaire.com/fashion/trends/articles/costume-jewelry-diamonds-pearls)
Models smiling, how nice(: Very rare!

How could this girl encompass everything I want? From the blazer, to the necklace, to the shorts and the tank! GSS~ here i come!

"Somewhere we know that without silence words lose their meaning, that without listening speaking no longer heals, that without distance closeness cannot cure."
-Henri Nouwen

To all who are stressed out by school, similarly, without troubles and stress happiness is no longer precious. JIAYOUS!

I've been thinking of you, see the sun set with no sleep at all.

<3alicia

I am in love with

2009-05-25T00:27:00.004+08:00

My friends who stuck with me thick and thin, through bad and worse. Lets just get married.

Why do we sound so emo on our blogs now? Why not look past our busy schedules and work something out?

My attitude was terribly wrong in the first place, sorry :/

I love you guys and like seasons, we will definately go through it together yeah!

p.s I think we all look chio(: hahahah!

ends

2009-05-23T23:31:00.003+08:00

can miles truly separate you from friends . . . if you want to be with someone you love, aren't you already there? -richard bach

I can be hurt, I can be disappointed but my love for you wont waver. I will not give up on you. So be sure that you can depend on me.

life hardly is the merry-go-round for me.

2009-05-20T19:51:00.003+08:00

When troubles come, it comes in pairs, just like good things.

I no longer feel like blogging because the main purpose of this blog was to keep in contact with you, however, I feel that it has worked otherwise, it has made us lazy, such that we cannot even send a simple sms to ask how each other are doing. There is no genuine feelings in realising I have problems then asking whether I am fine? Nor any in "next time".

Noone asks me if I'm fine, How are you today?, I miss you, I love you. All along it's been me. I'm sick of it. Yes, I'm selfish like that. It's my turn now.

I love technology but I hate it.

So I guess that's it, I'm on blog hiatus, indefinately.

shuns it

2009-05-19T20:39:00.004+08:00

"Psychologists say that 85% of families are dysfunctional. Suddenly, you are not so unique afterall. The difference is WHAT are you going to do now? You can choose to keep focusing on that or focus on what you really want. When you focus on what you really want, what you don't want will disappear and what you want will expand..."- the secret

This is from atika's blog(: And you have no ounce of idea how this is inspirin' me.

(HELLO "TWITTERS" OUT THERE, I think twitter is not my cup of tea and I know pastors are using it, but I really dont see the point of TWITTERING a.k.a telling everyone about every. single. moment of your life. goodness sake)

DOTS! you have no idea how happy I am that you are coming my church. I am estatic and really cant wait to see you this sunday(: By the way, dont wear heels, cos we're gonna be jumping around!

charissa! Dont forget REDRAIN this sun!(:
i love you!

INSPI(: Please dont read on if you are not that type of person who is obsessed with fashion. haha

I LOVE CHANEL'S 2011 RESORT COLLECTION! check out their swimming costumes! How funky isit! : D Coco Chanel was a lover of Venice, so Karl Lagerfield took inspiration from there and made sunglasses to replace "masks" of Venice.

My mum handed me down this vintage oversize blazer! Yes it's me in the pic ; D Dont criticize me cos I'm wearing PE t-shirt inside! hahahahahahahaha rolling over in laughter! There are awful shoulder pads that i need to take out and put smaller ones!

Underwater pictures are so awfully beautiful(: (thisisglamourous)

CHARLOTTE OLYMPIA PLATFORMS SPOTTED ON MODEL ENIKO MIHALIK.

PRADA HEELS (jak&jill)

I love fashion! I cleared out my wadrobe today and realised I only have 3 skirts and only a few basics I wear. I NEED TO SHOP! Anyone game? ; D

i cannot

2009-05-19T20:05:00.004+08:00

I cannot lose faith when others are gaining faith. Listening to any amount of christian songs aint going to help me gain it back.

I guess that when we all have our own lifes, we drift away. It's so sad. Because my intuition is telling me that at the end of these two years, I will look back and realise, that the people walking down the aisle with me on Grad night are not the people I want. I will look back and realise, somewhere along the way, I have lost them to busy schedules, to other commitments. No other assurance can deny this reality. So I am mentally preparing myself to face that and not regret when the time comes. After all, my God is the one who has always been with me eversince, what does it matter when friends that I sworn that they will be my eternal friends disappear one by one. What does it matter anyway?

dreams do come true

2009-05-18T00:10:00.002+08:00

i would like to really H2H wit char(;

You got a dream. You gotta protect it. People can't do somethin' themselves, they wanna tell you can't do it. If you want somethin', go get it.

i want

1) my beloved friends to come to the same church as me.

for now. all the other crap in this world cannot bother me. yes, not even me fallin down again.

i lubb you guys.

IMAGINEFORRED&today

2009-05-16T21:58:00.004+08:00

muahaha yesterday was so crazy. i was like this stressed out "KID" (since all others were older than me) commanding poor xiaotong and alicia around! if i pissed you off, im so sorry, cos i didnt mean it man!

this is the dress on a fake person, sadly i couldnt get a pic of the model with the dress on! : ( xiaotong can send me?XT and alicia camwhores alot(: an understatementhow beautiful are her eyes, nose, lips.. AIYAH EVERYTHING! all thanks to beloved CHAR! i love her to bits man! it was quite chaotic and you should have been there to see everything!

with siok after the show! funny night~today! i was in school for college day and boarding school opening ceromony which i feel is a WASTE OF MY TIME. all i did for opening ceromony was stay in a stuffy "games" room and carry chairs. stupid ***. but we went waffletown and i got 7stamps!! yay! (: free food to redeem! muahaha.

hee hee~

im gonna be much free next week and the next due to ISIC and ISSF! yay! so i can pop by char's school more and meet up more to catch up!

i love ya!

i hate **********

2009-05-13T23:09:00.002+08:00

i seriously was in a good mood today until i came home and suffered the wrath of my family.
and i dont feel bad at all in not liking a person. you cant force me and say im not christianlike what nonsense.

ohkay.

so I PASSED NAFA! i got a bronze! and did 19SITUPS! im gonna start training for next years' nafa!

and the competition is stressing me out and exposing the truth that i cannot sew for nuts.

i really hate *******

right now, i dont think anyone in this world would want to be in my position. ever.

my soulmates

2009-05-12T00:11:00.003+08:00

I've always dreamed of working with my friends. But somehow along the way, the dreams shatter and never come to pass. However, the creation of a project with two people, it’s a dream come true. All the joys, the break-downs, the hardships.

I have a few friends with whom I could go to the edge of the world. Who I could wake up in the middle of the night to console me, and with whom I could be cracking up laughing in even the darkest of moments, with whom I can have the most extravagant parties or we could just find ourselves simply talking. Those who piss me off but I love them all the same. Those who I piss off but who love me even so.
It’s always just so good to see, a beautiful friendship.

Im glad I have You.

skindeep

2009-05-10T23:36:00.003+08:00

i dont care how handsome or pretty you are, how many branded bags you have, how cool your hair is, but if you just have an attitude, or think im not worth your time, what makes you think you are worth mine, im not mixing around with you.

"If you had one ounce of self-esteem, of self-worth, of self-confidence, you would realize that as trite as it may sound, beauty is truly skin-deep." -Beautiful Girls

i really dont care how you look, but if we click, i will like you and get to know you! though give me some time to remember your name. im so bad at names. i took months to remember charissa's name you know! i depended on another person to call her then i will remember on a daily basis. OK now i remember her name la k!!

update!

i fell down again, todays sermon really touched me, decor is so demanding and i missed gets today!

AND OMG REDRAIN IS COMING. I CAN BARELY CONTAIN MY EXCITEMENT!

23RD AND 24TH MAY--H0GC--

RSVP ME NOW(:

HIYAH

2009-05-09T10:28:00.003+08:00

HI THERE(: love hope faith! haha HoGc's motto!!(:

so this is how the dress is killing me. making a DRESS in 4hours is no easy feat. this is what you need.

1)all sewing materials.

2)contacts lens not allowed cos staring at the itty bitty parts of the sewing machine will make you feel like digging out eyes.

3)Macdonalds Delivery number.

4)Be prepared to try on the dress with pins and pins on it because the mannequin is fake and you are real.

5)Know that what you do eventually will never look the same as what you sketched.

6)Draping rocks, cos thats what Project runway peeps did.

7)CHEAT using sticky tapes that melt under the hot iron instead of tacking and hemming.

8)Someone to do CPR just in case you hyperventilate when you realise you did something wrong.

9)Good pair of scissors designed specially to cut cloth

10)A good sense of smell so that you know when your fabric is burning under the rain. just like mine.

and what you get is a dress, ready for fitting!

the mannequin is really short, in reality, its quite short. fitting is extremely bad on fake things. all in all, photos dont do a dress justice.

anws love you guys.

arigato(:

2009-05-07T21:48:00.003+08:00

thank you guys for the encouragement(:

was talking with xiaotong today and warning im gonna be really blunt. we were saying how parents want the best for their children and in the process, ignore their child's needs, amibtions, happiness. maybe you would argue and say God wants us to respect them, etc etc.

personally, i feel that im super independant. if i want to do one thing, i will do it. and i dont care if my parents care. i actually feel irritated if people blame everything on their parents. like " ohh my father/mother say this say that so i cannot do this do that" i do agree that we have to listen to them, but not SUBMIT to them. unless you are forced like me. i think what happened after O's really spoiled the relationship between my mother and me. i always felt, up to now, she really ignored my wishes and went on with her decision of putting me in JC. CURRENTLY, im the one suffering. and she conveniently says "2 more years only". i also have this gut feeling she's gonna go back on her promise she will put me in fashion school after JC and say "aiyah, in JC alr,just go UNI lah. see your cousin go this this UNI bla bla"

GOSH, if you read that whole chunk, pat yourself on the back.

update of school:
tell me how to get rid of this girl who keeps sticking to me.
started on the dress today. so tiring!
i failed NAFA again, like anyone wants to help me with situps?

rantion

2009-05-06T22:05:00.002+08:00

today, i totally sucked. was so insecure. really really insecure. i should be secure but how to when people surrounding me are the same, insecure, bitchy, uncharacterless, fake, shallow, judgemental. worse, they are from SN. and theres this one girl whos making me feel replused just by seeing her and her stupid actions.

gross, i know i shouldnt be criticizing,

i'll just be secure after all.

updates!

2009-05-05T21:04:00.003+08:00

Friday(:

honestly, i was forced to take the last picture ok! im not so unglam one.

Monday(: studying wit siok, qilin, ernest!

we ended up helping qilin do mother's day gift for qilin! he's gonna stick these postits around his room for his mom to read! so sweet right! what are you going to do(:

i love God's people. i love God more(:

im thankful

2009-05-05T19:10:00.002+08:00

im thankful for my friends who support me in whatever i try to do(: i love you!

i cant seem to upload the poster! but its ok, i sent you guys emails! i hope everyone of you can come(: cos its a beneficial event and a fashion show! how cool is that!

i really cant find words to say how grateful i am.

i wanna grow more in God.

love you guys!

singly twins

2009-05-03T22:40:00.003+08:00

sasha and vlada are bestfriends.

but i bet they cant beat me and bestie. cos we've been through everything, although we were not there for each other at some point, deep down, we love each other(:

somehow, an outing of few words and little time makes me realise how much i miss bestie!

i cant wait for our next GIRLY outing: D

close to youuu~

2009-05-02T00:22:00.003+08:00

Good news flash: I GOT INTO THE AIDS AWARENESS COMPETITION(:

so charissa, if you still want and is able to, would you like to be the makeup person

and GEK IS STILL DA MODEL(: thx dots.

XIAOTONG AND ALICIA! lets work hard and earn that internship man.

am happy and sad at the same time.

p.s GET'S POST SUMS TODAYS EVENTS UP, SO CHECK IT OUT!

and leaving you with this quote

"the world breaks everyone, and afterward, some are strong at the broken places."
-Ernest Hemingway

we have to be strong together cos we cant stand alone forever.